whew. so last WI was AWESOME!!! the scale said 212.8 & i could NOT believe it but omg i was soo happy :) & i had driven home thursday soo friday was just amazing, i had the whole day to chill before we had to go out. i went for a half hr bike ride in the morning, then ate sushi, then went on a 1 hr 45 min run to the rental! in upper saddle river. which was just amazing. i love running, i love being outside . i really like being home- i just feel so at home & right. i just cant really explain it.
but anyway. when i got back after the run for some reason i felt the need to get on the scale again- i was 211.4 !!!! but i kept the first number cause i felt like it was the first # & .. whatever haha. so im not all that worried about hitting my halloween goal of 210 this friday, although i wasnt the BEST this weekend, i was pretty good friday, kinda lost it saturday but not as badly as i usually have in the past. so i guess im just alittle shaky on whats gonna go down.
i feel like someone zapped all of the energy out of me this week though. im soo tired & i have so much less motivation than i had last week. im nervous. but i also cant worry too much about it cause im also worrying about all the shit i have due this week (3 papers friday AH) and then what im going to do concerning the internship & graduation. plus i have a depression problem & i need to start fixing that, and i hate college/being in boston. its just ... alot. sigh.
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