to face unafraid the plans that we've made

sigh. so this weekend was pretty disastrous diet wise. it wasnt all that interesting social wise either haha. but what can you do. it was alright... i spent some of it beating myself up for eating badly... typical. i dunno. all i can say is i have to try again tomorrow. thats all you can do really. and tomorrow's christmas eve! but it'll be alright... there's not TOO mch bad crap to eat. and the gym is open til 5 so i'll definitely spend some time there. im just excited to see my family. i LOVE THEMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

ahhhhhh.

this break has been REALLY good family wise. and friend wise. i love everyone!! haha. morale is at an all time high. :) happiness.

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today started off as THE PERFECT DAY.

and it has ended in shambles

as i should have known it would! somehow i convince myself it will begin and end as the awesomest day ever.

wuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

im getting nowhere with the guy i like. OKAY: IM NOT GETTING NOWHERE. in fact, thats the whole problem! he basically does everything, including basically saying we were going to chill this weekend, and then PULLS BACK at the last minute and i am left frustrated and confused. im so overrrrrr it. he needs to grow a pair or decide he doesnt want to be anything more than friends. cause its sooooo annoying.

of course i get upset and BLOW my diet. eat everything.

THEN i decide : who cares? why did i ruin this day for a stupid little thing like that?

i pull myself together but its ALMOST too late..

well i cant eat anymore tonight, but i can excersize until i die.

which i intend to do. blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

everybody loves somebody sometimes

goooood day.
i havent written in awhile... last week was kinda crappy, i didnt even really weigh in. i weighed myself wednesday night and i was at 211 but i figured i was up 2 lbs from what i *really* was because a) i was wearing clothes and b) it was at night, not morning. so i estimated 209. but i never got to weigh myslef because i fucked up thursday and ate alot. so now im kinda frightened for friday... but we'll see. hopefully i win. :)

today was really good. it was the company christmas dinner. i ate really well , cept i had a piece of cake. but when i got home i ran so it was no big. :D

im officially tea-obsessed.

also, i promised myself i'd stay OP til christmas... im at least going to try to be good until friday. but i really hope i can make it til monday... cause it sucks if im such a slave to food and shit. bah. we'll see.

yay!!!!!!!!

yesssss! i just weighed in and i'm down 3.3 lbs from last week! i'm only .8 away from my christmas goal! so thats pretty awesome. :)
last night was realllllllllllly weird.

realllllly.

but yay!!!!!!!!! im so happyyyyy

come together right now, over me.

i said good 4 times in the last post haha. weird. i guess i must be happy.

which is crazy. i really dont get myself sometimes.

i drove back to boston this morning, i had to go the speed limit so it took me 4 hours haha. but it honestly wasnt so bad. i LOVE driving. so much better than the train, even if it takes an extra hour. and even if i have to stop 5 times to pee. yeah, you heard me. literally 5 times.

drinking 6 liters a day is awesome, and im totally glad i put that minigoal into effect. :)

abs class was soo intense tonight! i can still feel my muscles. and my midsection is so much thinner than it used to be. not thin by any means, but for me, it is. and i love hearing my friends say i look skinny. that's the best.

we went down the shore this weekend and each morning i woke up at 10 and ran for about an hour. it was awesomeeeeee! i love running. who would have thought id be a runner? well. i mean, im closer to being a runner than anyone i know haha. im planning on running my usual 5 mile walk around the charles tomorrow, if the weather permits. i hope it does!

okay, the hills is on in 3 minutes, then i gotta start my paper. ah! it shouldnt be too bad actually, im going to write a prequel to one of the stories we read, cause thats an option. PEACE.

my lungs are fresh& yours to keep

soooo i only gained .3 lbs last week haha. aka stayed the same, because .3 can be accredited to average fluctuation. so i wasnt upset or anything, i was kinda happy i leveled out. good thing is, the biggest loser challenge starts THIS week, so i'm all good. i want to lose 2-3 lbs this week. kicking off december at 211 lbs would be pretty cool. and im happy with 214 right now . :) life is good.

i love eeee my friends. this weekend was really good. :) i cant wait til christmas break.

which begins THURSDAY.! boo. yahhhhh