81 days til puerto ricooooooooo

ohh lordie lord lord. what am i doing?! haha/ i kinda lost it today, i got SO completely bored i guess my brain went into BINGE DRUG FOOD mode. so i didnt exactly binge .... at least not in the sense of tons of calories. although i topped out at 2100, which is a far cry from my usual 1000 , but it isnt HORRIBLE and all in all i did burn 350 at the gym. so i didnt gain but still. i feel like a balloon. tomorrow im totally back on track. i cant let my sickness get he best of me! plus next week is spring break so i already have to be on my best behavior/mind set for that.


silllyyyy...

maybe when you're old enough

198.1 read em and weeeeeeeeeeeeep! yayyyyy! im so happy. this week has been so insane and awesome. insanely awesome. :) i dunno. unexpected things happen, and i weather situations better than usual. im getting super proud of myself.


ive also added running to my routine at the gym and i really think its helping. plus i missed that... feels so good and powerful. strong.

oh yesss

im so excited to tackle this week and bring it to its KNEES biootchh :) haha im just feeling pretty empowered and like i can kick ass. bring ittt.

i know im going SOMEWHERE tropical for graduation,and this fuels me even more! i wanna wear a bikini! ah but i cant tell if this is too big of a dream. we shall see. cant hurt to try.

this week = chicken, eggs, & veggies. yeah thats some straight up protein. lets see how this goes ;)

i got mine !

yayayya soo FINALLY i am moving in the right direction and it feels damn good. :) i weighed in at 200.8 yesterday morning! so wooO! not QUITE my valentines goal of 199 but .8 off isnt bad! i soooo plan on keeping this up.

another motivational factor: POSSIBLE GRADUATION TRIP TO HAWAII!!! ahhhhhh

lovin life <3

you wont believeyour eyes

im feeling MUCH better today :) i had a really good workout and i feel so powerful right now. lol
im so happy to be finally really embarking on my new way of life. ive done alot of talking but finally putting the words and talk into action is actually doing it. getting things doneyo! and i cant wait til i get that feeling when im a few days into it and i actually FEEL healthier. ahh! i feel like ive let this get away from me for way too long.

i know a reward for reaching 180 on my birthday! this outfit:

nice right? :D my willpower/motivation has come back and im loving it!!! just you wait lol

lets see...

so ive been having kind of a hard time lately. ugh. i really cant tell if this is just proves that my spring semester always fucks with me or if my fears about it just tripped me up and made it happen AGAIN.anyway.

i want to break this cycle. im trying DAMN hard. or i WANT to try damn hard. who knows. ughhhh

i put a ban on alcohol til spring break. so thats something. i want to be clean and better.

they need to bottle willpower. seriously. hurry it up.