so i kept a visual of that monokini in my head when i was working out today lol. it totally helped. and i have to say i look damn good in that suit! haha.
ive gone to the gym twice already, now i just gotta get up the energy to go for the 3rd & final time. im sooo exhausted haha i just want to be done with the day. but its not a reality cause its only 7;15 & ive gotta read for tomorrow, and whatever. i also have not done enough worrying for the day. bleh. im kind of nervous for the future; like... it scares me thinking that okay, im graduating in may, its october... what do i have to do now to get ready & set everytihng up... its intimidating. i just want to emerse myself in losing weight & improving my mood but theres soo much more bigger things to get done & im just super intimidated & not up to it. im scared. thats definitely the way to describe it. just not interested in being so anxious all the time, i wanna just IGNORE it.... i wish this responsibility would go away haha. yeahh okayyy fat chance.. emphasis on the fat.
so lets go back to weightloss! im super nervous for WI this week, i didnt weihg myself last week cause i was sick & i was so off plan last weekend that i didnt wanna know, also it was my time of the month. but yeah this week i wanna see more results. ! like im sick of busting my ass & not really seeing as big losses as i feel like i should. but hopefully ill pull myself out of the slump this week. thats why i went to the gym twice already, i wanna try to go three times every day, burning 1000 each time, and that makes 3,000 total. and im also cutting my caloric intake to 1,000. WHICH , for all you math majors out there, makes a total of 2,000 calories burned @ the gym, PLUS 1,500 which i burn just existing. so thats a grand total of 3,500. a lb. per day. so yeah i hope this works out or ill be super exhausted & starved for nothing come friday lol.
alright, im gonna finish watching this episode of trading spouses & then muster up enough energy to get my butt to the gym. MONOOOKINIIIII !!!
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