ugh its been such a stressful day already, and its only 3;14. well. maybe i shouldnt say only.
but anyway.
im just so sick of being overweight. im sick of the nastiness some people treat me with. its really unbelievable. i mean im no fan of overweight people, but COMEON. the looks i get sometimes. and im not even that fat. its so fucking rude. this one girl in particular at the gym today, i dont even know for sure but she looked at me in this distinctly weird way. and i wanted to just go like "fuck you" right in her face. am i wrong for wanting to do that? she (and so many people like her) have NO CLUE what it means to be overweight, how it feels, how it alienates you and makes you hate yourself. they also have no clue what it means to WORK off the fat, to get down to their goal weight, to actually work for their bodies. im not talking like toning up your abs, im talking about FINDING your abs. losing weight. working for it. scoff all you want, but when i get there, my size 10 body will be way happier and mean much more than your size 4 that you just lucked into. whatever.
i also feel like ill have this better appreciation for life. people who are thin already stress over all sorts of other thngs. but if youre overweight, all you want to be is normal. thin. and once i get there, i feel like every day will just be so geared towards: LOOK WHAT I DID. this is all that really means anything to me, means the most to me anyway. so. i almost feel like i wouldnt want to have been skinny all my life and just have no idea what it actually means.
whatever, its just been a really shitty day. i feel so on the fringe of society. its fucked up.
1 comment:
Please do not be so unkind, and you may think things the other way.
I met my best friend on largefriends.com.she is some kind of a big person and she is so sensiive to her weight.So if you have a friend or relative who is overweight, remember to be kind. He or she is probably well aware of the problem. Jokes or teasing will make the person feel worse. Try to be encouraging instead by getting exercise together and sharing what you know about eating healthy foods. Do that and you will both like what you see when you look into the mirror!
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