late nights/early mornings at the library bite.

on the bright side, i found a good motivator/reward. i love american eagle. here it is:

i could always just buy it now but i figure its a good way to reinforce good habits. and a fun way, too. the question is, what should the price be? it shouldnt be too easy, but not so hard that it'll be spring before i get to wear it, and thus the point is lost. i'm thinking when i lose 18 lbs, i'll buy it. (i went back and forth between 15 and 20 for a while, 15 seemed too little and 20 somewhat too ambitious, but 18 seems like a good compromise. ++ PLUS, it reinforces my newly appreciated concept that a 2 lb weight loss IS important and significant in the grand scheme of things, even if it is just a "measly" two pounds.)

however since it will probably be out of stock by the time i do lose the weight, when i see that time's running out, i'll buy it and then keep it tucked away until i lose the rest of the 18 lbs.

eighteen pounds from my last weigh-in, which was 236.8, would make my goal weight 218.8 pounds.

if i dont ever lose the 18 lbs, it goes to the salvation army.

let the games begin.