yooo! its almost tomorrow but i cant sleep. kind of a busy ish day tomorrow- i gotta wake my ass up at 6:30 to make my 7 am yoga class. eep! so early. haha. but i made that my NSV goal for this week sooo good thing. this way im SURE to go , NO EXCUSES lol.
after yoga, come back here eat breakfast, then off to class. thennn gym, then wholefoods, then after finish eating lunch i gotta get a move on typing up my resume. eep. i think thats the hard part though, once i have that perfected i just gotta set up a standard email to send to whereever i wanna apply. i mean.. after that i just hope for the best lol. i need a job once i graduate in may.. ahh crazyness...
in a way im SO excited for my life to actually begin. back in jersey, where i know im supposed to be. i feel like once im back home with everyone pretty close at hand i can finally just get everything into place life-wise. here its kinda all about my weight loss & trying to not fall apart emotionally hahah. idk. but thats a good thing, i mean i get stronger that way & HELLO i needd to lose the weight.
speaking of graduation maybe i shouldnt be looking so far ahead (*counts*.... 7 months .. not SO far haha ahhh) but i want to be pretty much done with the difficult weight loss by then. which shouldnt be TOO hard, i mean i have about 55 lbs to go til im at goal... in 7 months, thats not even extreme. i guess my one worry is just how its always kinda slowed/gone downhill after january. but i cant let that happen this time. i will succeed ! its kind of my last chance, at least to really really give it my all & focus entirely on that. my freedom ends when i move back into the *real world* where i have friends & family & a job & things pulling me in 50 different directions. :)
anyway when i mentioned that to my mom & also told her i wanted to be a size 10 come graduation, she kinda smiled but brushed it off. whch is understandable like obviously ive made huge goals like that before (remember the bikini last summer one haha yeahhhhhh did NOT happen) ... but now i am GOING TO DO THIS. i can. !!! its just more ammunition, like when im tired i tell myself 'well they thinkm you cant' and im going to prove everyone wrong. blowww their minddds. :)
okay probably should get to bed... really busy day tomorrow... oh btw today was great, i have a blister on my heel from my new boots hwich is REALLY painful but i made myself go to the gym anyways twice and really good workouts both times :) woot!
after yoga, come back here eat breakfast, then off to class. thennn gym, then wholefoods, then after finish eating lunch i gotta get a move on typing up my resume. eep. i think thats the hard part though, once i have that perfected i just gotta set up a standard email to send to whereever i wanna apply. i mean.. after that i just hope for the best lol. i need a job once i graduate in may.. ahh crazyness...
in a way im SO excited for my life to actually begin. back in jersey, where i know im supposed to be. i feel like once im back home with everyone pretty close at hand i can finally just get everything into place life-wise. here its kinda all about my weight loss & trying to not fall apart emotionally hahah. idk. but thats a good thing, i mean i get stronger that way & HELLO i needd to lose the weight.
speaking of graduation maybe i shouldnt be looking so far ahead (*counts*.... 7 months .. not SO far haha ahhh) but i want to be pretty much done with the difficult weight loss by then. which shouldnt be TOO hard, i mean i have about 55 lbs to go til im at goal... in 7 months, thats not even extreme. i guess my one worry is just how its always kinda slowed/gone downhill after january. but i cant let that happen this time. i will succeed ! its kind of my last chance, at least to really really give it my all & focus entirely on that. my freedom ends when i move back into the *real world* where i have friends & family & a job & things pulling me in 50 different directions. :)
anyway when i mentioned that to my mom & also told her i wanted to be a size 10 come graduation, she kinda smiled but brushed it off. whch is understandable like obviously ive made huge goals like that before (remember the bikini last summer one haha yeahhhhhh did NOT happen) ... but now i am GOING TO DO THIS. i can. !!! its just more ammunition, like when im tired i tell myself 'well they thinkm you cant' and im going to prove everyone wrong. blowww their minddds. :)
okay probably should get to bed... really busy day tomorrow... oh btw today was great, i have a blister on my heel from my new boots hwich is REALLY painful but i made myself go to the gym anyways twice and really good workouts both times :) woot!
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