(this i actually wrote on thursday the 18th but blogger was messed up)
today was kind of blahhhh & by 6;30 i just wanted it to be overrr but i pulled myself together, went to my abs class, & worked out after too. :) okay, it wasnt just all owed to me, i downed some 5hr energy crap too. BUT STILL. wooo. it feels good to work my ass off... literally.
while i was waiting for the abs class to start i was staring into space & i actually could picture myself skinny , wearing a bikini top. it was crazy. and awesome. it was crazy awesome. im doing it. i set a pretty huge goal of being able to wear a bikini next summer. i want to reach goal by graduation. this is my last year away from home, without much responsibility & sooooo much free time for myself. ill never get this freedom again. i need to make the most of it. and i plan to.
anyway when i go home next time i want to search through my omi's photo albums for a picture of my mom when she was 17-21. i think theres a specific picture im thinking of, but its her on a beach in a bikini looking beautiful :) it popped into my head the other day as like a symbol of what i want to accomplish & strive for. i mean, shes my mother, im 21, im pretty sutre we have the same body type. thats me minus the fat suit. it WILL be me in june :)
i just have to sign myself over to the fact that it will take a ton of hard work & dedication. BRING IT!
today was kind of blahhhh & by 6;30 i just wanted it to be overrr but i pulled myself together, went to my abs class, & worked out after too. :) okay, it wasnt just all owed to me, i downed some 5hr energy crap too. BUT STILL. wooo. it feels good to work my ass off... literally.
while i was waiting for the abs class to start i was staring into space & i actually could picture myself skinny , wearing a bikini top. it was crazy. and awesome. it was crazy awesome. im doing it. i set a pretty huge goal of being able to wear a bikini next summer. i want to reach goal by graduation. this is my last year away from home, without much responsibility & sooooo much free time for myself. ill never get this freedom again. i need to make the most of it. and i plan to.
anyway when i go home next time i want to search through my omi's photo albums for a picture of my mom when she was 17-21. i think theres a specific picture im thinking of, but its her on a beach in a bikini looking beautiful :) it popped into my head the other day as like a symbol of what i want to accomplish & strive for. i mean, shes my mother, im 21, im pretty sutre we have the same body type. thats me minus the fat suit. it WILL be me in june :)
i just have to sign myself over to the fact that it will take a ton of hard work & dedication. BRING IT!
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