have you reached that point?

BIG HUGE SIGH. oh my god.this weekend .... just not what i expected it to be. oh well. move on.

let's talk about something constructive. i felt like SHIIIT all weekend because of what i ate: TOO MUCH. wayy too much. i need to find a way to cope with the weeknds home or im just going to run myself into the ground. it cant happen. i need a better plan. i mean. next weekend i have to go home for tante's 95th bday, we're going out to dinner on saturday. i think i especially need to keep fridays under wraps because if i screw up royally on friday its SO much harder to get back on track for saturday. well. i got 3 days to muster up some strength & solidarity.

i need to focus first on the small picture, then the big one. small: i need to get through this day. go to classes, do the homework, go to the gym & killlll it. big: where i want to be this time next year. next month. graduation. in 10 years. etc. etc.

i guess maybe i get way too caught up in the past & future and forget where i am & WHY.