i really seem to be having alot of clarity this week. i just feel so much healthier already, its really great :) i think i am finally back in gear ! veryyy excite.

probably not the same with school... but whatever. i do what i can to get by.

in other news my apartment looks like a bomb went off. guess you cant win them all...

im also really excited for my spring break this year!! i want to go to las vegas with fisz so badly so i hope that works out., and if it doesnt i would totally go with my brother's gf wherever if i could know in time. thats a big driving factor in my willpower, and i definitely think its about time! yayy. good things are on the way. oH maybe this is because of my huge change in attitude: because of something i said still hanging on to the mike thing even though im not invested in it anymore, everyone was concerned and stuff. so at first when they told me , i was pissed that they wouldnt stay out of my business and wouldnt believe me that i was really over him. but talking to jen i realized im really negative all the time and its not only affecting everyone around me but it affects me too. ive been hanging onto way too many old feelings and grudges and its weighing me down. how can i achieve anything like that? its only been a day or two but i already feel lighter and happier :) its awesome. nsv lol