so this is supposed to be my outlet instead of emotional eating, right?
ive been all emotional today. snow days SUCK when they land on mondays. ive already had two days of non-structure i cant STAND it. its amazing i didnt eat mountains of spaghetti and gallons of ice cream. i cant figure out myself... i dont even feel good about all the exercising and eatingwell that ive done. its like a lose lose...im SO stressed that what happened last spring semester is going to happen all over again this semester. ill just gain weight instead of losing. and ill struggle through the whole experience. a waste of time... i dont know why im so damn negatie though, ive already proved last semester i could change. why do i think the next few months might be any different? i need to think positively... i can DO IT. i dont want to be fat anymore! no amount of carbs and chocolate is going to heal that wound... only time and sweat. ughhh. perserverance.
i need positive thinking skinny vibes. tomorrow's a new day. and for once, i say that without having screwed up the past 24 hrs.
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